In Kristi’s words…Growing up, I was always the “babysitter”! Watching kids came easy for me and I wanted nothing more than to be a Mommy. After struggling with years of infertility, I thought I’d never have the chance, but I knew if I could I’d be great at it and I’d just love it so much.
My husband, Ian and I were blessed with our son, Maverick in September of 2014 and boy, has motherhood been so different from what I expected. It is so much harder than I ever imagined. I thought I’d be a natural after all this was something I wanted more than anything, so why wasn’t I just so happy everyday? My little blessing loves me so much (which is the best feeling ever), but he has been very needy of me from day 1 and he would cry non stop, sleeping only when I would hold in.
At first it was so hard and I wondered what was wrong with me, what was I doing wrong. Now that he has gotten older, he hasn’t necessarily gotten easier, but I have come to appreciate and recognize that these things have been great blessings. He has taught me patience in ways I never knew I needed. My son loves me so much and he has taught me so much about unconditional love.
I used to hate that he cried so much, but now as he’s gotten older I realize that he is just a very expressive boy. Now that he knows how to express his emotions better I get to see the joy he experiences, the love he has and when he needs more of my love. His emotions are so fulfilling to me, he loves people and interacting with them. He brings a smile on everyones face he passes by, and loves to get a reaction out of them.
This little boy has taught me how to be a better person and in the end a better mommy. He inspires me to enjoy the little things in life, and to not be too hard on myself for where I fall short. I love him so much and wouldn’t change a thing about him, I am so grateful he has inspired me to be a better mom and person!